From "A Whale's Tale" (coming November 2008)...

ALL U CAN EAT
Don't need a plate, you can skip the fork. Just give me a shovel and three pounds of pork. I don't wanna get no grief, Just mashed potatoes and a side of beef. ALL YOU CAN EAT! ALL YOU CAN EAT! I can't even see my feet, ALL YOU CAN EAT! ALL YOU CAN EAT! The price of this food just can't be beat. Don't bother me, I'm not on a break, Just trying to get through this Salisbury Steak. And stay away from me with that healthy apple, I'd rather drown myself in this trough of scrapple. I don't care if it's turning green, As long as it glistens with an oily sheen. PORK PIE PUDDING KRAUT WATERMELON STEW. I ate so much I'm gonna split in two. The price of this shit just can't be beat!


THIS ENDS IN A HAIL OF BULLETS
Five in the evening another California night. People headed home, putting work out of their sight, But there's trouble in the rearview and it's moving really fast - Looks like danger on the freeway will be on tonight's newscast. Now you're running for your life. Cause they're coming for your life. So you're running, but you can't win. When they're coming for your sins. Crash and burn as choppers fly overhead - Cars strewn on the interstate, let's hope that no one's dead. All cause some maniac broke out from the law, Got caught with a stash of heroin and decided to take off. Who's to say that you'll ever get away From the drugs, guns, and violence that you live with everyday. 90 behind the wheel, with the cops biting at your heels - Doing 10 to 20 wasn't part of this deal. Leap from the wreckage, sprinting when you hit the ground. Sweat in your face, your heart continues to pound. You can run, you can jump, you can fight, you can hide, But it ends in a hail of bullets and you're on the losing side.


THE WELL-WISHER
Honesty has lost its luster, saying sorry won't cut the muster. This ain't no playground game, being forced to take the blame for what you did, And what you're bound to do. Saying sorry a thousand times won't get you what you left behind - A job, a wife, or a better life. You'll never get it back again, the things you had you never can - Threw that away, and you said good day. So now you got what you wanted, and now you're getting what you deserve. You try to back step, cause you ain't got the nerve To say you fucked up, so I say good luck, good luck with all of that. On your knees as you beg and plead forgiveness for your dirty deeds, they were done, dirt cheap, so you can't sleep. And your soul is deep in debt with all the things you now regret - the greed, the lust, it's all gone bust.


UNDERTOW
YO ! HO ! HO ! We've been out at sea. It's been 5 years, maybe more. Just me and the boys, lookin' for that whale - it's time for us to settle the score. We work all day, from sun-up till it's dark, riggin' lines and hangin' with the crew. Drinkin' rum and playing cards, but the one thing that I don't have is you. Maybe tomorrow, we'll go back home. Maybe our journey will end. Maybe tomorrow, we'll turn around. Maybe I'll see you again. It's been 5 years since I saw you last, the memories are all that remain. Day after day on this wide open sea, and I can't wait to go back home. Well we caught a lot of fish, and we saved a lot of ships. We've been to every port and town. But still no word since I saw you last - this anchor is dragging me down. It was 7 years ago, the night was dark and cold, when the great whale destroyed our craft. The USS Ambergris held fast through the night, but in the end it was no match. The ship fell apart, and the skipper lost his heart and shouted "every man for himself!" And we all swam to shore and watched an hour more as that beast took our boat down to hell.


NO ONE CARES ABOUT YOU
Well here she comes again, that stuck up little bitch, acting like the cat's meow, but there's one little hitch. You think you can get any guy you want, you think you can act like a stuck up little cunt. Well I'm fed up and I'm not afraid to say what I'm thinking anyway, so listen up baby and try to see that I don't care what you think of me cause no one... No one cares about you. We all see right through your lies and bullshit, what makes you think you can act like this? No one... No one cares about you. Well no one's being fooled by your evil ways, and everyone's sick and tired of your prissy little face. You think you can buy anything you want by flashing a smile and money, but I've got to be blunt. I'm sick and tired of watching you walk around like you're the queen of town, so listen up honey you gotta see that I don't care what you think of me.


WHEN YOU CARE ENOUGH TO SEND NOTHING AT ALL
Forget the roses, no fancy cards, not getting a nice dinner or candy hearts, no-oh. No hundred dollar meal, won't be no wine, cause I'm no friend of St. Valentine, no-oh. No holidays for me this year, no parties, for you my dear, no diamonds, kisses, or cashmere this year. Santa's not coming down the chimney, so there won't be presents under the tree no-oh. Holiday jewelers tell me what to buy, but I tell them "fuck off and die", yo-oh. Why plan your birthday months ahead when it's just another day that you're not dead, no-oh. Cake and balloons and silly hats, no you're not getting any of that, no-oh.


ONE MORE SONG
I'm not here to preach ideals, I don't want to push my views. Just want us to get together and share a tune or two. Nobody's pointing fingers and saying who's to blame. No need for glory seekers or gunning for the fame. One more for the broken heroes (we'll sing along) One more for us worthless zeroes (we'll sing along) Just one to sound the revelry, just a little dedication for you and me. All we want is to stand as one, sing along and have some fun, and I know we can't go wrong with another nothing another song. Something for the young and old, for the meek and for the bold. A little ditty to fill the time for no reason and no rhyme. And if we don't seem to get a point across we won't chalk it up as a failure or a loss. If we do enough to really light up this place - mission accomplished if we put a smile on your face.


THE FOX
I ain't lookin' for love and I ain't lookin' for a beauty queen, and I ain't lookin' to settle down. Baby, you got what I need. You look so hot in that little skirt. High-heeled shoes, you're such a flirt. Survey says you're number 1, in my book so let's have some fun. Well it don't matter if you're good or bad, and I don't really care if your boyfriend's mad. I saw you over there lookin' my way, so listen up honey I just gotta say. See I don't care if you never call, it wouldn't bother me, no not at all, cause you might be the best that I never had. I'm a fox and I need it bad. THE FOX IS ON YOUR TRAIL. THE FOX IS CHASING TAIL!


IGNORANCE IS...
Got a problem on planet Earth - it's falling apart and getting worse. While terror wins, Bush just grins, seems like the world has gone perverse. As we watch gas prices soar and everyone goes off to war, missiles fly, civilians die, pray it don't reach our front door. Back here in our hometown, everyday life's been watered down by crappy bands and TV land, seems mind-fucked by a bunch of suited clowns. It looks like everything has gone to hell, but we just turn our heads and say oh well. We'll close our eyes and just go numb. Live for today and pray tomorrow never comes. Now rub the sleep dust from your sight. See through the wrong and do what's right. Find the time to speak your mind. Time for the blind to see the light. So now will you have a heart and give the world a new kickstart? Will you give to let Earth live, or will you watch it fall apart?


GET OFF MY LAWN YOU GODDAMN KIDS!
Every day when the sun comes out, I get out of bed and I curse and shout. Go outside and check my grass, if I see you there, I'll kick your ass. Water, trim and fertilize, gotta keep it green or else it dies. Poison all the rabbits and mice, and I don't care if you don't think I'm nice. HEY! GET OFF MY LAWN! YOU GODDAMN KIDS! Well I'm too old to have any fun, so I waste my time here in the sun. I mow and I weed and I mow some more. Won't be done till my back is sore.


DIE, SKELETOR, DIE
Hey Ann, I saw you on the TV yesterday. I couldn't believe just how much nonsense you had to say. Telling the nation about how heartbroke women felt. Saying how they reveled in the cruel hand they were dealt. You're so smart and oh so brave, but now you've got one in the grave, and when you slip and take that fall I won't be at your funeral. Then I glance over at George Carlin sitting in the next seat, biting his lip at your unabashed conceit. How Jay put up with the madness I will never know. 5 seconds of that crap and I'd be kicking you out the door. HELL NO, no one will go. YOU'LL SEE, no friends will show. Go ahead, be a know-it-all, but realize it's your funeral. Now you've got your book on the best seller's list. How can anyone read that shit without needing an exorcist? You want the world to know that you're a mega hit, but when I look at you I see fifty pounds of shit. DIE SKELETOR, DIE! Fuck you, Ann Coulter.


K.O.T.L.V.
You were the last one here and the first to go. Always butting in, trying to get on the show. Say you'll watch our backs but always run away, well next time we won't be there to save the day. You want us to get on our knees? You say we have to beg and plead? You wanna be head of the class? Well you can come up and just kiss our ass. So now we'll claim what is our rightful throne. Take back what is and always will be our own. We don't need hypocrites to try to lend a hand, don't need any charity cause we rule this fucking land. Hail to the Kings, baby.


LIFE
Have you ever looked around and suddenly found you were the old guy at the show? Everyone gives a stare, like you shouldn't be there, like a circus freak sideshow. Maybe you're losing hair, but who are they to care, this is where you'll always want to be. Cause there'll come a time, when they'll find that they're just like you and me. Kids of today, say I'm getting frayed. Say I'm getting old and it's time to go. But I won't sit back wasting my time away. You gotta live each day to the fullest, cause it just might be your last. Cherish all the good times, cause they go by way too fast. Raise a glass to our good friends, and the loved ones who have passed. And live each day to the fullest, because it just might be your last. Some will stay and others will go, but for us, we'll still be here. Stay with our fiends, until the end, and with that you can have no fear. So who cares that they say, that you're turning gray, this is where you'll always want to be. Time's too short to throw away what we call our tight knit family.


RAID THE VAULT
I'm so bored, don't know what to do, just sit around here just thinking of you. Anxiety's got a hold of me, there's nothing inside that I can see. Things aren't always what they seem, and you can't always find your dream. Speaking of dreams I gotta say, didn't we write this yesterday? When you've bled the well dry tell me what the hell we supposed to do? Go back to 2002! Raid, raid the vault play all the songs you wanna hear. Raid, raid the vault same old shit we did last year. Raid, raid the vault play all the songs you've heard before. Raid, raid the vault one more tune then we're out the door. Always forcing your views on me, but I don't care what you believe. The falling snow, my failing mind, I keep running but I'm left behind. Now we've gone our separate ways, our sun has turned to a haze. Wait a minute, hold the phone... we did that fifteen years ago! Cause when writer's block is just about to drive you mad... Hey, "Dinner Music" wasn't so bad. I can't come up with one original note... Let's play something that Puppet wrote!


ZAWODNY'S LAW
DON'T FUCK WITH SIMPLE!

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From "A Day Late And A Dollar Short"...

READY TO FIGHT
It was just a matter of time, before they took away your voice. It was just a matter of time, before they gave you no choice. They can try to change the constitution but it won't stop the revolution. They can try to change the frequency but it won't stop your destiny. They say it's better for the nation, i say it's time for liberation. Taking a stand in our homeland is the only way that we can be. Armed and ready to fight (we fight, we fight). The guns won't fall silent tonight. So the FCC gets stronger everyday, while they choose, citizens guide the way. Who are the ones that think censorship's ok? Who are the patriots that tell us what and what not to say? My hands are tied as you tell me how to live. My ammunition's in my voice and my rights I will not give.


OPEN ROAD
Sometimes you want to get away from everything that you know. Sometimes you want to hit the streets, just pack up your things and go. Well the highway's white lines are calling my name, the horizon beckons and calls. Maybe we can try to escape from the schools, jobs, and malls. And when the world's got you down, and you've got no where to run. Get up on that exit ramp, get out and find your fun. I love the blacktop, it gets me where I wanna go. Takes me to anywhere, and that's the place I wanna know. So when the grind's burnt you out, it's time to get some air. Pack your boys into the car and go to a place that doesn't care. Doesn't matter what direction makes you feel alive. All the roads are there for you whether it's 80 or 95. Sometimes you wanna get away.


I HATE MY JOB
Up in the morning at 6 am, still I got no money to spend. Makes me crazy and I wanna scream, bust my ass for someone else's dream. I can't wait to go home again. I hate my job and I hate you too. I'm sick of you telling me what to do. If you keep getting in my face, I'm gonna go nuts all over the place. I'm not gonna take anymore from you. I'm so sick of work and there's nothing I can do, kill myself for no respect - they haven't got a clue. I'm not gonna kill myself (kill myself for you). I'm not gonna kill myself (I'm gonna see it through). Quarter after four, almost time to go. Cash my check and get some dough. Can't wait to get home tonight - gonna call the boys, it'll be alright. But if you push me again, I'm gonna blow.


NO CLUE
Hey mister tough guy, take a look around. Looking for some brah respect where there's none to be found. Look at little beauty queen, flirting like a ho. This ain't the catwalk baby, it's a fucking punk rock show. It's so crystal clear, that you can't fucking see - that's not a stick up your ass, no, it's a fucking tree. Self centered egotist, and that, there is no doubt, You'd start your own fires just to put them out. Time to close the book, we've got to turn the page. Cause I'm so sick and tired of all the players on the stage. Say you hated high school, the in crowd was so mean, Now you walk and strut your stuff, the cool guy of the scene. Got the band to get the girl now it's cool to be you - spouting off your nonsense, when you don't have a clue. Time to close the book, we've got to turn the page. Cause I'm so sick and tired of all the players on the stage. When are you going to grow up? It's time to start acting your age. Someday you will realize that you're just a player on the stage. You're just a player on the stage.


HOUSE FAMILIAR
So you're tired of the same old story You got the guts but get no glory. Got opinions but people cut no slack, You speak your mind and they just turn their back. Well it's time to get up and try again. Go to the place that we've already been. A place that will greet you with a smile. A place where you'll want to stay for a while. Sometimes you want to cry but it's alright. And you wanna die but you've got to fight. You've got bridges to build and fences to mend. But you're not alone you've got a friend... In the house familiar. Times are hard and there's no doubt, With life, luck and love you're striking out. Got the facts that are so profound. You're speaking up but they just cut you down. So baby girl just take my hand, and I'll lead you to the promised land. Look around and you will see Fitting in is not priority.


SMASH MY RADIO
Hanging out at home on Friday night. Me and the gang were feeling alright. I turned on the radio and all I hear is bad retro. I want to hear some rock and roll tonight. Cruising down the road doing 75. Letting loose, just going for a drive. But everything on the radio, sounds the same and has got to go. I need something to make me feel alive. I wanna smash my radio - wanna smash my radio - I wanna smash my radio - Tired of the noise on the radio. The story's been told a thousand times before. But no one seems to care anymore. When you can turn the dial and find nothing that is worthwhile. The music scene's become such a bore. Time to turn the radio off. Smash it up can't stand the talk. You skip the songs we think are great And make us listen to the shit we hate.


I THINK THERE'S SOMETHING WRONG WITH YOU
Behind the hazel eyes lies something deep inside. It's evil and malicious with the truths you cannot hide. You came in a pretty picture and wrapped up in a bow. Somehow I failed to see selfishness began to grow. I should have stayed away from your poisoned touch. I should have walked out and not cared so much. How was I to know temptation would lure me like it did. The siren song trapped in and now I can't get rid... OF YOU! There's something wrong with you. Something wrong with you. There's something wrong with you. Now the dagger's in my chest dug in way too deep. Heart stopped, vision blurred, the blood begins to seep. And as I fall unconscious I look to the sky and see - the downfall of my existance was right in front of me... It was you! There's something wrong with you - There's something wrong with you - There's something wrong with you - THERE'S SOMETHING WRONG WITH YOU!


THE REBOUND
In another messed up situation, been betrayed and it's aggravation. Feeling like a venom bite, realizing it's not alright. Say you've felt another heartbreak, and one more you know you just can't take. You clamber for something to dull the pain as it's settling in once again. I can stay for just a little while - good for now is your brand new style. I'm your bounce back, I'm your rebound. Just your pick me up when you've been let down. I'm that quick fix when you're in town. Always come back when you want me around. Now you know that I'm your man, an emergency back up plan. Help you forget about the past we'll take it slow or make it last. So if life's a total bore you can come up and knock on my door. And you know I'll let you in. We can let the good times begin. I know break ups are hard to get through, but you don't have to go it alone if you don't want to.


LIAR, LIAR
Everything you say is crap, you're a liar and that's a fact. No one can depend on you. Annoying asshole, double face, biggest jerk in the human race. No one can depend on you. Liar! Liar! Don't believe anything you say Liar! Liar! I wish you'd just go away. Lie to everyone you meet. Talking to you is a dead end street. No one can depend on you. Only look out for number one. You think you're cool, and you think you're fun, But no one can depend on you. Go away and leave me alone, don't try to call me on the telephone. No one can depend on you. Treat your friends however you feel. Lie and cheat and fucking steal. No one can depend on you


NO WAY OUT
I feel like I'm trapped in a fucking box. I've lost my key and you've changed the locks. I really really need to get away. I can't take it anymore, trapped in here screaming on the floor. I really can't listen to another thing you say. Girl you got me locked away, I know there's no way out. Tied me up so you can't hear me shout. NO WAY OUT! Girl you got me dying here, I know I can't get free. Won't somebody come and rescue me. NO WAY OUT! All the walls are closing in, and everything gets under my skin. I really really think I'm gonna crack. I can't believe the way I feel. I can't believe anything is real. I really can't understand why I took you back. It's slowly getting harder to breathe. I wonder what else you got up your sleeve. I really really need to break this curse. I wanna get out and get some space, but then I think of not seeing your face. I really think that that feels even worse.


GET WILD
We're gonna go out and stay all night, get a little crazy it'll be alright. Tonight - We're gonna get wild tonight. We're gonna go meet up with the girls and boys, raise some hell, make some fuckin' noise. Tonight - We're gonna get wild tonight. Work bell rings and I hit the road, gotta get home and get to the show. Tonight - We're gonna get wild tonight. Stayin' up till dawn won't take it's toll, I gotta get somewhere and play some rock n roll. Tonight - We're gonna get wild tonight.

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From "In The Valley"...

THE MALCONTENT
Another night not gettin paid, Another night not gettin laid And i wonder,what did i get myself into? Time spent busting my ass, Time spent in the working class But nothin, no nothing's good enough for you - Well I didn't think that getting hitched was just an excuse for you to bitch About everything that I do wrong And I didn't think that every night you'd find a reason to get into a fight So I find myself just singing this song I'm the bad guy so you say Nothing right done every day And I question, just why do I stay? I'm the asshole, yes it's true But I'd do anything for you Until the day you pack up and go away (go away) So now I think back about my life Forget why I asked you to be my wife Realizing that I've sealed my fate Maybe if I chose a different path This wouldn't be the aftermath But it comes two kids too late


SHE'S A PSYCHO
There's this girl that's really hot But stable is something that she's not There's something wrong with her brain I tell you that girl is fucking insane She's a psycho (PSYCHO!) She may look nice but it's all an act I know that girl and she's fucking whacked Don't try to take her home to score She'll put your head right through the door She may look good but it's plain to see That girl is not like you and me Don't try to take her home by your self The medication won't even help


IN THE VALLEY
When I cross the steel bridge,that's when i know I'm home It's where all the heroes of the golden past roam. full of possibilities across the valley sky where kids come to go to school,and elders go to die -Teens go to basement shows Sober Club or at the cove Happy tap,do your thing Yocco's is hot dog king From Easton to Catty we share this common place Reality of a splintered scene just smacks me in the face B-hem to A-town from the burbs straight to the hood Not coming together ain't doing a bit of good -I look around and see the wars in front of me when the punks hate the 'core Is this scene worth fighting for? (Here in the Valley) Where the outside world doesn't exist (Here in the Valley) Spend the night getting online dissed (Here in the Valley) We got over a hundred punkers strong (Here in the Valley) It's a wonder why we can't get along


WHAT YOU BELIEVE
You're always forcing your views on me - I don't care what you believe - You treat me like the enemy - I don't care what you believe - You fight and you fight Just to prove you're right But that don't make you better than me - I don't care what you believe - I'm sick of you forcing your views on me - I don't care what you believe - Just get away or I'll fucking scream - I don't care what you believe - Tell me I'm wrong, Cause you don't like my song Well that don't make you better than me - I don't care what you believe - WE... DON'T CARE... WHAT YOU BELIEVE... Stop trying to force your views on me - I don't care what you believe - Leave me alone and let me be - I don't care what you believe - Take your box off the floor, Don't wanna hear anymore I know you'll never be better than me - I don't care what you believe


TROUBLEMAKER
She's a pill-taker She's a troublemaker No matter what I do I just can't escape her She makes me steal She makes me fight No matter what I do She makes me stay all night She's so bad but it feels so good I want to get away but it's understood She's got some kind of hold on me She's so bad, but it feels so good to me She's a heartbreaker She's a troublemaker No matter what I do I can't seem to hate her She makes me drink She makes me lie No matter what I do She makes me feel alive She's a real shaker She's a troublemaker No matter what I do I just wanna take her She treats me bad I throw her out the door But no matter what I do I always go back for more


THE OTHER SIDE
I know a guy, he says he's alright I saw him on the street just the other day Saw him sitting there with a needle in his arm I walked up to him and said what's going on? He just shook his head and turned away I've got a friend, he's wishing it would end Talked to him on the phone a few days ago Telling me his life is a living curse I said things could always be worse That's when he said goodbye and went away And I know... things aren't always what they seem And I know... you can't always find your dreams Bbut I think we gotta find some hope, I think we gotta try to cope And things might just turn out alright On the other side I know a girl, she hates the whole world I saw her on the street just the other night She was standing in front of the corner store, Dressed up looking like the local whore I just shook my head and turned away

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From "That Not So Fresh Feeling"...

NEVER LET GO
Can you remember back in '85? The shows that we used to see We'd catch 5 bands for a couple of bucks Or try to sneak in for free The shows were hot and the music was loud And we'd all yell and sing along Brothers and sisters of a common love United and growing strong The memories of times we had… I'll never let 'em go When my kids come and ask me what was it like? You know I'm gonna let 'em know Never let go… Never let go It's been there all along Never let go… Never let go Always keep the flame burning strong! Well the years went by and we all grew up And went our separate ways But there's always been something deep inside That never went away Now I look around at the kids today And I see a little bit of me And I know right now that I'll never let go Of everything we used to be


I'VE HAD ENOUGH
I don't wanna hear your reasons, and I don't want your excuses I don't wanna hear about your rights, 'Cause I think you're fucking useless The system gave you every chance and you pissed each one away I'm tired of hearing all of your shit, so you better stay out of my way It's time we made a change We gotta stand up and say I've had enough - I've had enough of living this way Always living in fear of our lives 'Cause the system ain't so tough I've had enough! Every time I watch the news it makes me fucking sick Another derelict criminal gets off with a slap on the wrist Rob a bank and steal a car, tell your wife, it'll be okay Why can't we have a justice system that puts these people away?


NOTHING INSIDE
Looking at my television Seeing life with no mission Where's my direction… where's my strength Look to myself for my faith Nothing inside Nothing inside Nothing inside of me Go to work and go to school Try my best to act so cool What's the reason… what's it for Hope to life there's something more


MAKING IT WORK
Listening, is what I need to do Not talking, for me is nothing new How can it work if I don't open up I want to tell her that I love her And serve it in a cup We love each other We will make it work Spend our lives together We will make it work Growing up, we knew how hard it'd be To live our lives, with each other faithfully How can we keep it up without any money We'll save it up and live without Until the days are sunny


I'M BORED
I'm so bored, I got nothing to do I sit around here just looking at you And I'm so bored I got nothing to say There's nothing to talk about anyway I'm so bored, I got nowhere to go What's there to do – I don't even know… And I'm so bored I got nowhere to be I gotta get out and I gotta get free I'm going out of my mind There's something that I gotta find Give me! Give me! Something to do Give me! Give me! Something to do I'm so bored I can't take anymore I stay at home and just sit on the floor And I'm so bored cause I'm stuck in my room I'm gonna go nuts if I don't leave here soon I'm so bored I got no one to call I'm staring at the light blinking in my hall And I'm so bored I think I'll just go away There's nothing to do here anyway I'm so bored sitting here at work My job is the pits, so I act like a jerk And I'm so bored that I wrote this song I hope it sounds good and it's not too long I wanna wanna have something to do I wanna wanna have something to say I wanna wanna have somewhere to go I wanna wanna have something today I'm bored

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From "Dinner Music"...

REGRETS
I never got the chance to know you I would've shown you everything It wasn't my choice - no not my choice at all We never really thought it through Sometimes the unexpected Can make life difficult, it makes life difficult I should have spoken my mind Maybe you'd be here And I wouldn't feel this pain No I wouldn't feel this pain I really didn't have a choice She wouldn't listen anyway What could I do, just sit back and wait Years ago you were a part of me And on that day I lost you Part of my world had died, it just plain died


BLUEBLOOD
Another nervous night Like every other night But this time he won't come home Instead she'll answer the phone The call she didn't want to hear From wife to widow in just one year The badge he proudly wore It just meant something more Than just a 9 to 5 day He wanted it that way He told her when he said 'I do' She knew the risk, but loved him too


WORTH IT
There was a time when I liked to play When nothing was on my mind Hang out with my friends after school Leave my little troubles behind Where did all the fun go? What happened to my dreams? It seems the dollar got in the way And took my hopes away Is it worth it? To sell your soul, To make a buck Will it make you whole, To give up all control Now that I am stuck behind this desk The hell I chose for myself So I can live in a nice house And build a nest egg of my wealth When I look at myself And see what I've become I think how things used to be Where is the real me When I am old and see my life And think of all that I've done I hope that I can look back And be proud of my son Will he follow in my tracks? Or will he think for himself? Will he see what it did to me To have prosperity


THROWAWAY CHILD
That once proud house is not my home On the streets, I'm on my own Thought I'd make something of myself Now I play the cards that I've been dealt I'm tired of the street With nothing to eat I thought mom and dad loved me Throw away child I did my homework just like I was told Still I was kicked out in the cold My drunk ass dad didn't give a shit Beat me and mom when I got sick


ANXIETY
I feel it coming on again The slight tightness in my chest And then the sweat starts to flow My heart starts pounding My stomach starts churning I feel like I'm going to die Anxiety, Anxiety Why won't it go away Anxiety, is killing me It'll take me to my grave That painful, uneasy feeling It keeps me awake at night It takes control of my life My hand starts shaking My eyes starts twitching It happens I don't know why


LOSE MY MIND
The falling snow my failing mind I keep running but I'm left behind I watched it go it went so fast I don't know how my life will last Each time I look back on my life I can't remember who was my wife When I think of how things went I can't believe my life's been spent I'm not too sure why I can't remember anything But I know I'll never lose my mind

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From "Ambergris Demo 1993"...

STILL NEED YOU
Sometimes when I'm alone, I sit here by the phone And push my self to call you, but I know that you're not home No you're not home Sometimes I feel alive, and other times I try To push aside my broken heart and move on with my life My lonely life Sometimes when I'm at home, I think of how we've grown And how I should have shown you you'd never be alone But now you're gone I think of how you'd smile, when we walked that mile When you were in my arms I melted in your eyes But now you're gone We had our lives laid out in front of us Our rivers flowed through all the pain We had our dreams torn out from under us I still love you - I still need you We've gone our separate ways, our sun has turned to haze And late at night I dream of you and slowly count the days Since you've been gone Well life goes on, they say, you learn to hide the pain But I really need to turn to you to hold me in the rain But now you're gone Sometimes I still need you


I TRY
Following in other's shadows, afraid to stand alone Scared to take that infant step, the light still seems so yet unknown The beaten path is traveled well, but somehow seems so worn The road winds on without a doubt, like twilight fades into the morn Can I stand on my two feet, and walk alone into the street Or will I fall? That choice is all... Reach inside my searching soul, and hold for life my strongest goal By myself, with no help... I try, and I try, to find the strength inside myself I try, and I try, to not be everybody else, and I try We travel on but still we follow, others whom we've known My consciense begs to break away, from the woods so overgrown Up ahead the road divides, and the others choose a way Will I follow blindly on? or find myself a bright new day?

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Unreleased

JAIL OF SILENCE
Sitting at home Thinking alone Wondering why I can't talk Biding my time Drinking some wine Scared to go for a walk Inside my mind Thoughts are unkind Trying to figure it out Saying the words Just seems so absurd My head is so filled with doubt In my jail of silence I just can't get out I can't break these chains Why can't I get out?


SHEEP
Can you feel the excitement The thrill of it all Bringing us all together Watch the bodies fall Hear the band play the music Heed the leaders call In a room with everyone Watch the bodies fall You're all sheep Mindless fucking drones You're all sheep Go out on your own Did you shave your head today Did you pierce your nose Put your spikes and black boots on Get the perfect pose Do you see that scrawny kid? Push him to the floor Put those boots down on his head Watch the blood and gore